prayer.

dear God,
hectic is the word i'd use to describe my life now. gosh! in all this busy-ness, never a single day i went to sleep without thinking and saying a small prayer for him, no matter how exhausting my day was. all i asked for was, if he really is meant to be or not, i need a sign. but a thing for sure, i'm not going to put myself at risk of getting hurt again. as though getting hurt twice in 2009 isn't enough.

please don't put me in a crossroad again. twice i chose the wrong way or was it once? is he a wrong path i had chosen? and if there is going to be a third one, i'm so sorry but to stay put until the path is a clear way.

i disposed of my past and something not to be repeated. learning from those ugly past is the best way for me to carry on living a new life, with or without him. but i'm still hoping a life with him. at times i questioned myself, why am i still wishing upon a star?