escapade.

the first thing i did when i woke in the morning was to say a lil prayer for him. i prayed that God would take away a little of his ego. and i was puzzled by myself. why was he the first person i thought of in the early morning?

i told mum today that i need to find an escapade from my past. this house i'm staying in had too many memories. some of which i want to run away from. i urged mum to move out. by God's will, i'll look for a place soon. probably in Sengkang, Punggol or still stay in Tampines.

he just had to remind me of the ugliness of my past. argh!!!

i've had enough stress. and there's more to come. bleargh!!

mum reminded me the goodness of a guy. they are good for heartaches. "zaman mungkin sudah berubah tetapi perangai dan keegoaan lelaki tak akan berubah" (translation: times might have changed but a man's attitude and ego will never.) i remembered clearly, you told me not to be selfish. because i had been through a bad experience, i should still give others a chance to feel loved by me. you made me feel unappreciated.