the first thing i did when i woke in the morning was to say a lil prayer for him. i prayed that God would take away a little of his ego. and i was puzzled by myself. why was he the first person i thought of in the early morning?
i told mum today that i need to find an escapade from my past. this house i'm staying in had too many memories. some of which i want to run away from. i urged mum to move out. by God's will, i'll look for a place soon. probably in Sengkang, Punggol or still stay in Tampines.
he just had to remind me of the ugliness of my past. argh!!!
i've had enough stress. and there's more to come. bleargh!!
mum reminded me the goodness of a guy. they are good for heartaches. "zaman mungkin sudah berubah tetapi perangai dan keegoaan lelaki tak akan berubah" (translation: times might have changed but a man's attitude and ego will never.) i remembered clearly, you told me not to be selfish. because i had been through a bad experience, i should still give others a chance to feel loved by me. you made me feel unappreciated.
June 29, 2009
June 28, 2009
wishing.
dear God,
each night i had to exhaust myself out just not to think of him and get some rest. i'm fatigue. if this is the test i had to go through to atone for my past mistakes, i'll take each day with a pinch of salt but why do you have to make our paths crossed when it is not meant to be. just how much more wrong guys before i meet the right one?? isn't what i had gone through last year good enough for a lesson learnt.
you had ignited my feelings for him and now, i had to let him go. they say, if you love something, let them go. if it returns, it's meant to be but if it doesn't, it never was.
i've had enough living a frivolous life. i given up such lifestyle. i'm looking for an escapade from my past.
dear God,
a simple prayer for him,
please take away just a lil of his ego. am i asking too much?
i miss him, badly but if it is otherwise, that is for you to show me.
each day, i'm hoping against hope. wishing upon the wishing stars. to hold you in my arms again.
each night i had to exhaust myself out just not to think of him and get some rest. i'm fatigue. if this is the test i had to go through to atone for my past mistakes, i'll take each day with a pinch of salt but why do you have to make our paths crossed when it is not meant to be. just how much more wrong guys before i meet the right one?? isn't what i had gone through last year good enough for a lesson learnt.
you had ignited my feelings for him and now, i had to let him go. they say, if you love something, let them go. if it returns, it's meant to be but if it doesn't, it never was.
i've had enough living a frivolous life. i given up such lifestyle. i'm looking for an escapade from my past.
dear God,
a simple prayer for him,
please take away just a lil of his ego. am i asking too much?
i miss him, badly but if it is otherwise, that is for you to show me.
each day, i'm hoping against hope. wishing upon the wishing stars. to hold you in my arms again.
June 24, 2009
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