regrets.

dear GOD,
deep down, i know i haven't been a good person. i'm not blaming anyone for my bad attitude. i've lost great friends. i get confuse. the truth hurts, as cliche as it may sound, it is true. not wanting to hurt anyone's feeling i kept the truth. when it hurts, i am in the wrong. blamed for keeping the truth. i am seen as a bitch. someone hateful. i dissed these people, not bothering how they feel, so long as i get my way. i do not go down without a fight.
once friends, now turn to enemies because of my own egocentric attitude.

i hate to keep harping about how you made me and the ex-boyfriend meet. you gave us sweet memories and a bitter ending. me being me, again, egocentric, just had to put him down. so the excuse to my 'farewell' entry. tit-for-tat is a never ending vengeful process. why do i feel victorious after what i did? should i not feel ashamed of my own attitude?

dear God, please forgive me for my bad attitude. i don't want to lose more great friends. please show me the right way out of my misery.

to the people whom i've hurt, my sincerest apologies. please do forgive me. how can i make things better? please tell me.