hurt.

was sipping my iced latte at mc cafe, when my mind started to wonder off by itself. the person you love will always disappoint you. i strongly believe. at first, my parents' marriage came to thought. they were married for more than a decade, an affair spoilt it all. i've lived with him for less than a decade. the only image i have of him are those that my mum have been telling me and i've lived by it. i don't know who the real person he is.

then, the image of farid came to mind. this is the part i hate most. out of the blue, his sweet promises and memories came rushing back. i hate it, i hate it, i hate it. i tried so hard to hold back the tears but i can't help it. when i came back to reality, i hate myself. i hate myself for thinking of you. i am so over you, i can say confidently. but why, the devil in my head have to think of you. it is so unfair. it's been almost 6 months since you left me. maybe, the month of february brings a whole lot of memory especially on the 26th. it could be our 5th anniversary. i'm really hurting inside. now, i know how you felt when you said you were hurting inside everytime we had an argument. i do miss him at times.