it was a bitter-sweet memory which will forever be etched in the bank of memories. my emotions were greatly intrigued. the after-taste left me unsure and insecure. i have to admit, the honeymoon period is over, it ain't a bed of roses anymore. so what should come after the honeymoon period? will i be happy just to know that you woke up in the morning and reached home in one piece?
the devil is in my mind, whispering sweet-nothings of a future without you. but the lil angel that resides in my heart won't back down without a fight. it was a tough fight. and it is still fighting. the insecurities that i'm feeling is slowly killing me. as much as i want to ignore that feeling, the coldness i get from you just doesn't help. just how much do you want this to work?
mistakes of the past are undeniable. making it right again, wasn't an easy task. all i need was some warmth and reassurance from you that i'm not alone.
='(
June 16, 2011
January 15, 2011
villain.
after last night's argument, you made me realised that it was the financial sacrifice you had done for me was all you can see. though i know i'm clearly at fault for the argument, i'm still disappointed.
when i'm totally at fault, you racked up the past and i just had to be quiet about it. yes, you made sacrifices but don't i have any good part in this relationship drama? am i just the villain? when it comes to your fault which i picked just ONCE, have you apologise for that? never. you never see it as something wrong you did because i got the dates all wrong. did you see the bottom line of it? even if you did, you'll never admit you are wrong. the fault is all mine.
every expectations of yours i had to meet them, a failure in meeting them, spells doomsday for me. i don't want to impose any expectations on you. for i know jolly well how high my expectations can be and when it is not met, i'll get disappointed big time. just a simple expectation of not drinking with the boys was not met, the tables was turned and it became my fault.
i've lost my voice of reasoning. i'll always lose to your words of wisdom. just let it be that way cause i'll still be the villain in this drama.
when i'm totally at fault, you racked up the past and i just had to be quiet about it. yes, you made sacrifices but don't i have any good part in this relationship drama? am i just the villain? when it comes to your fault which i picked just ONCE, have you apologise for that? never. you never see it as something wrong you did because i got the dates all wrong. did you see the bottom line of it? even if you did, you'll never admit you are wrong. the fault is all mine.
every expectations of yours i had to meet them, a failure in meeting them, spells doomsday for me. i don't want to impose any expectations on you. for i know jolly well how high my expectations can be and when it is not met, i'll get disappointed big time. just a simple expectation of not drinking with the boys was not met, the tables was turned and it became my fault.
i've lost my voice of reasoning. i'll always lose to your words of wisdom. just let it be that way cause i'll still be the villain in this drama.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)