mercilessly.

for every night i prayed for you, i fall asleep halfway through.
is this God's way of saying forget about you?

when imissyou, i would go to your profile. today, i stumbled upon the message, bbaby. i am jealous. and my heart dropped. i guess this is the second sign of 'forget about you'. as much as i would want to forget about you, it keeps on coming back to me.

deep down, i do miss you. your disappearing and appearing game are just what the others are doing. i question myself, why do i feel hurt with the games you play and not the others?

when something undesirable grows in my soul, i ask God to give me the same courage, mercilessly to pluck it out.