expectation.

relationships thought me a lesson. a valuable lesson. never have an expectation of our partner. when expectations are not met, disappointment will be greatly felt. ever since my first serious relationship with farid. every expectation i had of him, will end up as a disappointment. and goes the same for the relationship i had after him.

being a working person, i understand the demands of time. wishing we had more than 24 hours a day to be divided between family, work and other commitments. and me being an emotionally high maintenance person, demands attention. seeing the boyfriend only when he fetches me from work is pretty unbearable. that is an expectation i have of this relationship and all the others, a mistake.

therefore, i don't make plans on weekends. if he asks me out, i will be glad. and when it's another weekend without him, i'll keep myself busy. i need girlfriends!

i miss him, badly.