resentment.

the bottom line
it looks like one of your more shallow friendships is moving to a much deeper level.

in detail
it looks like one of your more shallow friendships is moving to a much deeper level -- this is wonderful, but some of your older friends might be getting a little bit jealous that this newer person is taking up so much of your free time. this is a tough time for juggling people, and it could be stirring up some resentment. try to integrate this new person into group activities so that everyone can spend more time with you -- and get to see how wonderful this person is.


hilarious! some resentment, indeed. mr lazy said, a BIG NO to "integrate this new person into group activities so that everyone can spend more time with you -- and get to see how wonderful this person is." haha! all it will cause is more HAVOC.

since you chose to withdraw while i said not to disappear from my life and i need a great friend like you, what is left to say?

'my WAY or the HIGHWAY'

magnanimous.

what a pity! he isn't someone magnanimous. he isn't happy that i've found happiness and it is not with him. he wants to withdraw himself, i'll respect your decision. when i told him about the guy who can't read the hints, i expected him to be smarter. but, oh too bad!

i suppress my feelings for others for fear of hurting him. i won't deny that i ever had feelings for him. i ever considered getting romantically involved with him but when he couldn't get accept the fact that the ex-girlfriend actually moved on, i wondered, am i just a stopover for him? or will i be his rebound?

love transforms and love cures but, sometimes, love builds deadly traps and can end up destroying a person who had resolved to give him or herself completely.
what is this complex feeling which, deep down, is the only reason we continue to live, struggle and improve?

this feeling is present in the small things, and manifests itself in the most insignificant of our actions. it is necessary, therefore to keep love in mind, regardless of whether or not we take action.

friends?

will you still be my friend if one day, i tell you i had fall for someone but, that someone is not you?

i didn't want to hurt you. i know how it feels to be rejected. my feelings for you is just how i felt for other guy friends i had.what differs you from them is how you had treated me. you're a nice, good-hearted person.

i have to thank you for boosting my confidence and allowing me to be the crazy me. thanks to you too, i've found the old me. i don't want to be with you because i feel indebted to you. you had been a GREAT friend.

i really hope that you won't slowly disappear from my life. i need a great friend like you.

missing.

was reading a random blog. in her blog, she had pictures of her trip to bintan. i was reminded of someone. gosh! a tinge feeling of missing him came. i still remember how excitedly you told me about your trip. memories of you flooded my head. the most memorable time i had with you, though it was for one night only, was when you showed me the beauty of henderson bridge from your window. i really miss you, mr A especially during the times we webcam.

if you, if you could get by
trying not to lie
things wouldn’t be so
i wouldn’t feel so used
but you always really knew
i just wanna be with you

and I’m in so deep
you know I’m such a fool for you
you got me wrapped around your finger
do you have to let it linger
do you have to.
do you have to
do you have to let it linger

linger by cranberries

fall.

today my horoscope says,"there is someone out there who loves you very much. you'll be together once he figures out how to get out of his padded cell."

hmm... wondering who is the guy. is he ever going to get out of the padded cell and save me, THE damsel in distress?

well, dear God, he is somewhere out there but when am i going to be brave enough to FALL in LOVE again.

where oh where are u?

apology.

here's an excerpt from 'the last lecture' by randy pausch. hope everyone can learn from it.

apologies are not pass / fail. i always told my students: when giving an apology, any performance lower than an A really doesn't cut it.

half-hearted or insincere apologies are often worse than not apologising at all because recipients find them insulting. if you've done something wrong in your dealings with another person, it's as if there's an infection your relationship. a good apology is like an antibiotic; a bad apology is like rubbing salt into the wound.

.....i'd start by describing the two classic bad apologies:

1. "i'm sorry you feel hurt by what i've done." (this is an attempt at an emotional salve, but it's obvious you don't want to put any medicine in the wound.)
2. "i apologise for what i did, but you also need to apologise to me for what you've done." (that's not giving an apology. that's asking for one.)

proper apologies have three parts:

1. what i did was wrong.
2. i feel badly that i hurt u.
3. how do i make this better?

yes, some people may take advantage of you when answering question three. but most people genuinely appreciate of your make-good efforts. they may tell you hoe to make it better in some small, easy way. and often, they'll work harder to help make things better themselves.

"what if i apologise and the other doesn't apologise back?"
"that's not something you can control, so don't let it eat at you."

if other people owe you an apology, and your words of apology to them are proper and heartfelt, you still may not hear from them for a while. after all, what are the odds that get to the right emotional place to apologise at the exact moment you do? so just be patient. your patience will be both appreciated and rewarded.

i sent him a sms on the night of hari raya. seeking forgiveness for the hurt i caused. but i did not include the 'how do i make this better?'. not courageous enough. i guess, i just have to be patient and wait since, i may not be hearing from him for a while.