like.

like is an understatement. thank you all for liking me. liking me for who i am. my clumsy-ness, not so noisy me, my nonsense and whatever antics you like in me. thank you, i appreciate it a whole lot.

every action has an equal or opposite reaction. -newton's law.

the feeling of liking me may be reciprocate or the opposite. i see you guys as friends. someone who i can gossip, talk, tease and also be my aunt agony and vice verse. i really do appreciate friends like you. but when there's an intention of bringing the friendship a level higher, i'm rather ignorant to such signs or hints though it is obvious. for a reason, i do not wish to be implicated into that game anymore. convincing, coaxing or even showing immerse interest, care and concern will not move me to fall in love for you. trust me, it takes more than that to melt a stoned heart. and also chemistry.

i'm in for the dating game but to love again, that is out of the question.

wishing all Muslims Eid Mubarak. My sincerest apologies for any sarcasm or if i've unintentionally hurt anyone's feeling. forgive me please.

teachers.

a teacher's prayer.

i want to teach
my students how to
live this life on earth
to face struggles
and it's strife
and how to improve
their worth.

not just the lesson in a book
or how the rivers flow
but how to choose the correct path
wherever they may go.

to understand eternal truth
and know the right from wrong.
and gather all the beauty
of a flower and song.

for if i help the world to grow
in wisdom and in grace
then i shall feel that
i have won
and i have filled my place.

and so i ask
your guidance, dear God.
that i may do my part
for character and confidence
and happiness of heart.

happy teacher's day!

...and happy fasting to all muslims!
may you have the strength to go thru the endurance tests given by Him.
insyallah.

hilarious.

the bottom line

lighten up about yourself! stop dwelling on your worries and start getting silly.

in detail
lighten up about yourself! no matter how bad things may or may not be right now, there is plenty of stuff in your life that you can celebrate. so stop dwelling on the worries and the woes that have been swirling around your head lately. flip through some old photos and laugh at the haircuts you thought were cool and the fashion mistakes you made. bake yourself a batch of your favorite cookies and eat them all by yourself! Just be silly and avoid getting too deep into your own thoughts.

well, i've stop dwelling on my worries. cause i've solve it my way. hilarious incident, i can say. that's the silly thing i did. haha!

'plenty of stuff in your life that you can celebrate.' of course, a week of school holidays. just a day to work out of the week holiday. meeting ikel this weekend. more camwhoring and crazy-ness. in fact, i've spend almost every weekend with him. and i'm not complaining at all. i enjoy every minute of it. yipee! booze and tanning. i'm going to be so tanned and healthy looking. may the sun shine brightly all weekend.

today, i've receive more presents than on my birthday. haha!

happy teacher's day!

pencil.

here's a story of the pencil. excerpt of 'like the flowing river' by paulo coelho
a boy was watching his grandmother write a letter. at one point, he asked:
"are you writing a story about what we've done? is it a story about me?"
his grandmother stopped writing her letter and said to her grandson:
"i am writing about you, actually, but more important than the words is the pencil i'm using. i hope you'll be like this pencil when you grow up."
intrigued, the boy looked at the pencil. it didn't seem very special.
"but it's just like any other pencil i've ever seen!"
"that depends on how you look at things. it has five qualities which, if you manage to hand on them, will make you a person who is always at peace with the world.

first quality: you are capable of great things, but you must never forget that there is a had guiding your steps. we call that hand God, and he always guides us according to His will.

second quality: now and then i have to stop writing and use a sharpener. that makes the pencil suffer a little, but afterwards, he's much sharper. so you, too, must learn to bear certain pains and sorrow, because they will make you a better person.

third quality: the pencil always allows us to use an eraser to rub out any mistakes. this means that correcting something we did is not necessarily a bad thing; it helps us on the road to justice.

fourth quality: what really matters in a pencils is not its wooden exterior, but the graphite inside. so always pay attention to what is happening inside you.

finally, the pencil's fifth quality: it always leaves a mark. in just the same way, you should know that everything you do in life will leave a mark, so try to be more conscious of that in your every action."

fun.

since friday i'm off and back to work on tuesday. whoa! what a super long weekend.

friday 08.08.08, i did some housewifey duties. did some marketing and housecleaning but no cooking. helped mummy to prepare for saturday's outing to sugei buloh nature reserve park.
on this day too, i declared my feelings for a guy. only one person got to see the agony i had to go through. but, too bad he wasn't in the state to be in a relationship. sheesh! disappointed by his rejection but no regrets. at least i know what kind of guy he is. and by the way, he is the only guy i tell how i strongly feel about. it is a lucky date but ain't so lucky for me.

saturday 09.08.08, met up with my aunts i.e my support system. teehee! well, gossiped while walking through nature. reached home at 5pm and straight to bed. shag!!
woke up cause someone called and told him i was napping but he can't seem to understand. he needed explanation. and sucky, i couldn't get back to sleep. sheesh! chatted for a while and then got dressed for party. a girlfriend asked a date to MOS. well, called a crazy dude up to join me. met him at dobhy ghaut station. took a train to clarke quay but ended up at little india instead. cause i got the stations wrongly. damn! last train at lil' india left us just two minutes ago. of all places to get stuck at. ended up we took a cab. haha!
danced the night away. reached home around 7am.

sunday 10.08.08, woke up slightly before dusk. damn, my whole body ache! slacked home the whole day. slept around 3am.

monday11.08.08, slacked around for almost the whole day too. popped by my cousin's place for a while and head back home around 10pm.


gosh! back to work tomorrow!

have a great week!

alone.

its a monday. most people were having monday blues but me, i was taking it easy. woke up very early and send the uniform back. then, i head to changi village. bought myself breakfast and went to the beach. enjoyed the morning sun, sea breeze and sound of the waves. all by myself. for once, i love what i was doing. i needed the time alone. i should have done this a long time ago but work and career had been getting in my way.

there's more to life than work.

take a break and enjoy the people around you before they vanish one by one and leave you all alone.

though i like being alone, i realised when i have a boyfriend, i want his attention. i like him to pamper me. maybe because i'm mummy's girl and am very pampered. i admit. is it a weakness? am i being too demanding?

i'm a self-declared emotionally high maintenance girl. love me or buzz off!

ditch.

have i finally found him? no, he finally found me. he reached his destination after a long time. dear God, he is not a godsend kind of guy. but i surely am thankful that he manage to soften the hard-hearted me. he is definitely not on impulse decision. i followed my heart and i'm sure that he is the one for me, on top of all the other guys.

ditch the past and shall enjoy my present with him.

dear, i love you!