iluvyou, mama.

dear mama,

working and studying simultaneously is no child's play. no one told me it was this tough. three hours, three times a week for the next thirty months. and the reason i'm putting up with this, all for the sake of a better future for myself and letting you enjoy your retirement though not an early one.

all i'm asking from you is a little understanding. at times, after class i just need to spend some time with him. though i may reach home very late, i won't and didn't forget my responsibilities the next day. and saturdays are the only time i can spend quality time for myself and for him. sundays, its our family day.

as much as i try not to grumble and complain when asked to do the household chores, you seem to forget you have a son living in the midst.

most times you think he can't be dependent on but, mama, he have to start doing something about himself. loafing around at home for the past years and i'm solely providing for the family, it really wears me out.

i'm doing my very best to break away from the vicious cycle of having to stretch our dollars till month end and not having any savings for ourselves.

please don't ever give up hope on your son and i need your full support to go through my tough times.

dear mama, i luv you.

hush.

the greatest distance on earth is not north and south, it is when i am right in front of you and you do not know i love you.

love is a strong word to describe your feelings for me when asked. but as some wise man says only fools rush in. but i can't help falling in love with you.


well, whats a milder word to describe what you have for me?

i shall not probe. you said it best when you said nothing at all.

friday.

another long weekend for some, but ain't for me.

he was all quiet on thursday and finally a text msg close to midnight from him asking me to sleep early so that we can be out early the next day. surprise! surprise! i thought he totally forgets about our date to sentosa. i needed a tan and him a place to play his new toy.

him being a late sleeper and even later riser, woke me up as early as 8.30am. kudos to your effort, dear! but still, friday being a weekday, i had woken up at 7am. we promised to meet at 10.30am. and me the not-so-morning person, took more time to get ready and realised its 10am. him, the not-so-punctual person is gonna be late. well, still not enough time for me to take the train. i dilly-dally away the time and took a cab. he was later than i am. so, we met at 11am and had brunch at LJS, vivo.

seriously, i had no idea what overcome my emotions, i was throwing a little tantrum and was quiet from the time i met him till way after i had tanned. before i had my shower, its the question of, where to go next. bleargh! he got sleepy while waiting for me, so we went to get some rest.

after some good rest, it was dinner time. intial plan was to head some where for dinner but the rain caught up with us. so, we rode from harbourfront till jurong. i wasn't soaking wet but just shivering cold. reached his void deck and went for dinner near his place. a lil of lepaks at his place and my eyes keep closing.

and he drove me home at 11pm. gosh! that was a whole day of events!

back to work on saturday. and slept thru the day.

sundays are my slack-at-home day.